So yesterday did spend my time with my family at serasa beach. It was fun, the awesome part is football time hehehe. I LOOOOVEEE PLAYING FOOTBALL!! Since im always busy with books i dont get that much time playing. I have only weekends ( atu pun sometimes ) n the holidays! But the killin part is my right leg got injured like freakin baddd!!! I blame my sister for that for having a strong leg bones gila bah macam tertandang basi!!! kekeke!! well anyhoo, biar tia saaakit janji beluriihhh hehehe. :p Ok enough that, im freakin like pissed to continue..

Feeling like wanted to express something here.

Its freakin sucks that i have a boring relationship! Like seriously, im freakin bored! Not that kinda bored eh, what i meant is something else. Theres been many lacks in my relationship. Lack of love, Lack of attention, Lack of commitment, Lack of honesty n blaBlaaa. Is this happens when we have a long-termm relationship?? Tapi orang lain ku liat ok2 sajaaa. I just missed to be untrusted, banaar seriously i ammm!!! Bcos if he dont trust me then i get to have a lot of attention! Ani apa boring mcm inda kana ingau rasa ku! Argh how i missed the times duluuu! Sometimes i just felt like....hm....malas kn cakap!! If this how it goes ah aaaiii bulih gila ku!! I've already told this told that tapi apaaa?!! what did i get?!! Terus terang ku dah bah maaaasih jua inda ku faham lagi bah bahasa melayu dah tu ah ku pakai ah, bahasa remix kali bah baru tah fahaam!! It sucks faking that everything's okay when it is not okay! ANTAAAH EEHH. Mcm cakap pun inda guna bah yatah cakap sendiri ja mcm org gila! I dont know what to expect, what to do n what to hope for anymoreee. I FREAKING DONT KNOWWWW!!!

Heading to bed~~zzzzzzzz!!!!!!

Today was just okay. Did go somewhere to relax my mind infact im goin again maybe tmrow. Being alone n feeling like ur single kinda bothers me much. Used to be there but then gone, its like ur losin ur mind. Im feeling really empty n so boring being alone. It made me so desperate to do something that im not supposed to do. Its never easy for me being alone, theres just something that will pops out in my mind. Something that will hurt me n hurt him. Damn, im like talking crap rightnow.

Alright lets go with the topic,

So I just realised what I did with my sibs were pretty outta line. I feel bad rightnow. I know what we did were very wrong! We shouldnt act n talk like that, its way outta line. It made me realised how we have to be patient whenever we're mad even how ego selfish the person is. Now aku felt really berdosa, I should had control my anger n keep my damn mouth shut!


" Ya Allah, ampuni lah dosa hamba mu ini. Dan ampuni lah segala dosa ibu bapa ku. "

I felt like crying right nowwww cant even type more. SAD!!!!

wwoooohhh its been so longgg since i my last update. lots of things had happened plus im studying. yea im taking o's agaaain! dont wanna talk about classes stress ku! studying is no fun u'know!! ok whatevaaa...so its holiday n all of us ( my family n i ) sleptover at grand's place since my grandma, aunties n uncle r going for umraaah. so two weeks here suuuuunyyyyyyiii!!! probably i'll be alone since on this 12th he's also goin awaaaayyyyy!! im like what am i gonna do??? well~~ lots of freakin things on my mind though hehehe shhhh!!! dont wanna talk about shitsss. just go on with the flowwww~~

hmmmmm im like speechless rightnowwww....thinking to go but feeling like typing moreeeee~~~ haiyaaaa whatsup with meeeee. hm i guess imm goinnn will update more if i feel like tooooooo~~~:) i just wanna do an update since i missed blogging alot!!!