A little late for all the things you didn´t say . I'm not sad for you. But I´m sad for all the time I had to waist. Cause I learned the truth. Your heart is in a place I no longer wanna be. I knew there´d come a day that said you free cause I´m sick and tired of always beein' sick and tired. Your love isn´t fair. You live in a world where you didn´t listen and you didn´t care. So I´m floating, I´m floating on air..

Im getting sick and tired of everything.

Aku mulai tak percaya pada cinta. Semuanya hanya menilai dari harta. Manis mulut mu membuat aku melayang. Seolah aku lah orang yang terindah. Aku di tipu lagi di tipu lagi aku di bodohi ku di tipu lagi di tipu lagi berkali kali. Ada kah orang yang mengerti cinta? Yang mengerti tentang perasaan ku? Aku di tipu lagi di tipu lagi aku di bodohi di tipu lagi di tipu lagi berkali kali.

So.. My mind is thinking of ridiculous things like "im better off alone". Gosh, i felt so left out lately. I wont tell by who its just a waste of time. I dont feel complete anymore, theres a lot missing and no one notice it even that someone. Whatever im cool with everything rightnow. Aku sanak plus aku mau hidup "sendiri". I wanna learn livin on my own without anyone on my sides. Hope i manage to do that if not MERANA TAH KU DENGAN PERANGAI KU PENGINGAU ANI. I dont need anyone lagi, bila ku perlu pun manada ada jua yang datang and paham so BAIK KU HIDUP SORANG2 TANTU (:

Today was no good. Like usual headache lagi and i wokeup very late like usual jua. So she's like starting new drama lagi. WTH does she want! Gian ia bah kan bekelahi ah BAE! Urg bckp bisai2 ia mental, dhaaa kunun gagar lah urg tu ah! MALU KU PLG OLEHNYA! PUI siapa kan gagar kau ah MIHIR! Boyfriend mu genya tu gagar kan kau ah yg tau ikut ckp mu ah, URG LAIN ALUMMM. Adangtah kau eh jadi MISS PERFECT sana ah, ANNOYING KU MELIAT. Apatah tu bejalan temeng melintas kami atu! Inda pyh dih di kedapan kan B**ps mu ah and inda jua kali pyh di tunggikan jubur mu ah, MIHIR KU MELIAT KAMAH BAH KAMAH! Mihir ku meliat apa tah tu nya! TAKUT KU EH, PUI ALUM! Satu lagi, rapati tia lagi ANTAM TAH KAU SANA AH BEGILATAH KAU BEGATAL MELANJI SANA SINI MACAM GILABAE!

Kau berakal kaliah TAHU KAN SEGALANYA! ENTAH KAU INDA BERAKAL ADA PLG! Inda payah bangga dih perangai mu catu ah ptutnya kau malu bukan nya bangga! Ani di asuh nya lagi KAN MATI! URG SEKELILING MU WAH YG MALU. Mentang2 kau kana ulah macam raja oleh boyfriend mu ingat urg lain kan ulah kan kau cematu. Jgn luwan kan meninggi hidung ani dih! Huh okay im like so pissed off, nada lain lah pasal siapa. Actually aku malu wah banarnya, its enough that she had problem with me ani with urg lain th lagi. MALUKU WAH ia beperangai catu ah. Ia inda plg malu eh KAMI BAH MALU.

Entah eh. Kan hope for her to change its like impossible becos she never learn from her mistakes infact menjadi ada plg. Okay imma go just want to let this anger and malu here. OFF.

I really need a shoulder to cry on rightnow )': I wanna cry so hard rightnow. I just cant stand it. I felt i want to screw this damn brain and just die without peace! I know im talking crap rightnow i just cant take it. Theres a lot in my mind but mostly its all bout the samething )': I feel like killing myself now. It really hurts when no one around you doesnt get you at all and yes i said this too many times huh i need to let it out so what the hell! I've been very patient but still theres no change. I tried all of my best to be the better one but still no change. Im running out of ideas how to deal with this life.

Holla peeps! I cant sleep as usual, actually i was sleepy plg tadi but then something attracts me so inda lah jadi tidur but i really need to sleep nanti kena marah olehhhhhh..... SI BABE! Hehehe. Bah lets talk about today, shall we? So today was...okay, i guess. We did go out tadi but it wasnt that enjoyable for me, i didnt have that great time youknow. The weather was pretty HOT! Me no like! Im not gonna blog much today since im tired.

WHAT A SLEEPY DAY FOR ME TODAY! Can you imagine, lastnight i just slept for like a hour and then in the afternoon i just took 15minutes nap and then slept tadi di kerita for like 30minutes?GOSH IM PRETTY TIRED! After this i probably sleep tarus ni cuz tomorrow morning dengani beloved grandma cuci gigi, i dont want to wokeup with a big headache mcm tadi ):

So this is how my day goes.. BORING!!!! I am super duper boring these days!! How i missed to go out. Its not that i couldnt, its just that.... Hm.. You know how relationship goess right? And yes im not okay yet! And guess what? SOMEONE JUST DONT REALISED IT! I am so flattered, NOT! Ok whatever dude you just go on with your flow and i'll go with mine, and we'll see who's gonna survive. If thats how its gonna be thats okay im cool with it. Just dont complaint if anything happens between us, you got that sugar? Im not being ego but i wont let man crush me down just like that. At times i maybe that weak kind of girl but not the whole time. I can be the meanest girl you'll ever know.

I've been through a rough day today, it went like HELL! I OFF my phone, i dont know until when i dont feel like kan betipun masa ani. Sakit berabis hati ani )": Im crying mcm si paloi, i cried so hard dpan my bro inda lagi tahan it just come out all of the sudden. My bro was like " mengaapa kau menangis?" and i didnt give response just giling2 kepala and cried. Im too hurt, i just cant take it anymore. Im not saying im giving up it just that ENTAH EH payah kan explain cana sakit nya rasa hati ani. Didnt expect everything jadi cani. I know inda guna kan cry but sendiri nya keluar and it cames out so hard. Its like im losing something that means alot to me. I felt like cutting my damn veins and just die BANAAARTTAHHH! Im so stress out wah sakit bah sakit )': No one can feel what i felt rightnow, im dying wah dying!!!

Holla! Hm its late i know, aku inda dpt tidur ): Aku teringat sesuatu which made me really down infact i felt like i wanna kill myself rightnow )': Im hurting and crying like a little baby rightnow!!! Everytime its snap in my mind, i felt im losing the most precious thing in the whole wide world. The question is WHY?!! URGGGHHH. MSDK )': What do you feel if you lose something/someone that will happen to be in your life forever? IT HURTS LIKE HELL! Sakit wah hati ani, SAKIT BERABISSS )': If i just had one wish, i wish that i can turn back the time. I wanna fix things that should be fix. I admit i regret for the mistakes i've done years ago. But what can i do? I cant just rewind masa cematu saja and usai semuanya, its too impossible. I just hope one day i'll be livin the life that i've been dreaming of, insyallah mudahan umur ani panjang amin. Almost 19years i've been livin and i felt many ups and down and hoping to stay longer and achieve to be more better than i could rightnow. Just hoping that someone could paham aku and be there for me always. It is almost april, genap lah 2tahun nya MSDK )":

Ok im just trying to keep my blog alive here so this is the update. Been chatting just now with roliepolieolie and thats when i went horribly CRAZY! I wont mention apa yg MENAIK KAN DARAH KU ATU sakit saja hati ani!! Ok nevermind that. So lately i've been craving IKAN MASIN ): Aku mau ikan masinnnn seliur wahhh s: Its been 4days i've been craving for ikan masin. Suruh the maid buat kan balum tah sampai2 nya eh!! I want to eat ikan masin so badly ): Not just ikan masin tapi spaghetti, nasi pusu, pizza, ayamku, blutak, sandwich and egg tart ): Oh man im short but i got a whole big tank in my tummy! Shoot, how i am gonna lose weight if i just kept craving and eating saja! Can someone stop me?! I cant control eating s: And urgh how i hate my hands! Gatal saja wah ya, i think im allergic to that citra ayu cream DAMN bida tangan ku tarus wah tapi nyaman bah pakai sejuk rasanya! Ok im off, krg my babe mrh akhir tidur.