So lastnight we all just came back from miri and it was....sama jua lah macam trip di KK. Only that this time no kids only us yg bujang2 hehe. And i didnt shop much time di miri due to kapeh-ness :D Next time i just got to bawa usin banyak2 eh, buring bawa usin sikit atu. Ah babe ah??? And like always i eat much liat tah aku mikin berisi ah s: I cant stand the delicious food sana membari makan banyak wah macam2 kan di makan. I like the pasar malam sana not like brunei, di sana macam2 ada basar lagi pasar malam nya tinggal milih saja lagi. Hm and i had nightmare lagi kelmarin which really worries me )': 3times wah, pikiran ku jadi inda menantu banyak tanda soal!! I hate this BANAARTTAHH! )': Currently now, im having a stupid tummy-ache which really ruin my mood and im so not in a peace situation right now im having a stupid headache jua! Hm )': So im lazy to taip banyak2 let the pictures explain everything, these are just some banyak lagi tapi in facebook, indakan ku upload semua kali lagi? Atu banaaaa patah tangannnn. These are the pictures when we were in KK and Miri. I LOVE THEM! (: And babe i love you wah, i hope that it wasnt true. Aku bulih jadi gila mun banarrrr!!!!! )': Nauzubillah. Oh yes today is our 4years 5months annivesary babe (: I will never stop loving you, only you here in my heart. You meant a lot to me, hoping this relationship stay longer. I want to be your real " bini and mamanya " and wanna be by your side always. AJHS, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

And so down eh i was thinking kan upload the pictures when we were at KK here but turns out nanti saja cuz balum kana lend camera bah aku ah, will upload as soon as i get that camera (: These picture of kami berdua ani are from bro hazar's phone, the rest arah camera makteh. So i guess til here, aku sangal s: Tomorrow lagi ambil sijil beranti, oh shoot sangal ku meliat " bagas " sekulah ku ah, nothing interesting! Oh yes i will be on vacation lagi hehe this time ke miri plg, will serbu there this friday (: With my baby, makteh aunty kuG, bro hazar, malik eqah and sis fhiee. Hope inda boring eh and hope nada lagi yang teberia2 saja! Eh oooppsss! Tetaip pulak!

I woke up tadi with a headache and damn my back hurts s: Its been 3days now ia sakit, i dont know apa sebabnya out of nowhere bah ia sakit ah ): So i am 100% pissed today!! Dia pikir aku bodoh maaa. Talur jua eh tarang2 bah wang eh kanapatan ah, bullshit inda tah mau ngakun inda sial dari manakan tu!! BUDUH IA!! Mun inda pasal sayang and family, ku tinggal kan kau atu udah!! BAE BAH BAE TAU KAUUU! Kau ingat aku main2 kah dangan cakap2 ku, JANGAN LUWAN INDA PEMERCAYA ANI WANGGG ADA KAN KAU RASAI. BAKAL JA KU ANI BEPIKIR TAU KAN SAYANG KAU, INDA KU INGIN BUAT PEKARA YG INDA DI INGINI ATU. KU GITAHU KAU WANG AH SESAYANG2 KU KAN KEDIAKAU ATU JANGAN DI AMBIL ADVANTAGE BUAT PEKARA2 YG KU BANCI, PAHAM KAU SANA ATU?!! EH MATI BANAR EH CUBATAH RASA SAYANG KU ANI ARAH MU HILANG, INDA KU SAKIT CAMANI KUSUT MENTAL!! BAE BAH TAU KAU BAE??! Mun kan main tipu MARITAHHH sama2 tani main tipu!! Kau jua suka menipu, tebuat aku karang macam2 cakap mu ulah mu. KIMA BANAAAR! Macam bae lagi tu, take dont know ya BUDUH IA! Nah liat tah kau inda paidah2 kana sumpah2 saja kau oleh ku BUDUH! And lagi satu talur soalan mu atu " buleh kah inda kelahi?" eh bae KAU YANG BUAT MASALAH ANI BUKAN AKU INDA LAYAK SOALAN ATU DI TANYA!! Ah satu lagi sudah atu krg aku yg kau ucap ego, HELLO SIAPA YG EGO BANARNYA NI???!! Shit im out of mood, im pretty pissed wah and i need to cheer my damn self up!! Otak ku hangattttttttttt!!!! p/s: KAU BUDUH tapi aku sayang kau yatah membuat kan aku pun buduh! Terima Kasih eh.

What a relief, semua urusan sijil2 sudah selasai waiting for sijil beranti siap lagi. Nyaman jua hati ani lapas ani nada lagi " bilatah kau kan ambil siji2 mu ani? ", no more kana tanya cani alhamdulilah (: So..today ngalih eh. I didnt have enough sleep, ani tdi bru jua ku bangun pkul 10pm ah ini mcm krg pyh kan tidur ni. So im home now at muara balik, arrived here petang tadi trus ngampai tidur eh. My baby sent me home here, thanks babe. Also thanks for the company tadi and ikut uruskan semuanya. Im not in the mood to talk about him, im diam2 pissed here! Siapa jua inda pissed! Awu ada harinya tu. Malas kan becakap tdi since he's tired and aku pun tired, im not in the mood kan buat issues tadi so simpan saja dulu my dissapointment ani. I was like " ok mun mau banar aku jadi ONLY KAWAN nya saja gitahu inda pyh dih kan bunga2! entah maybe arah urg lain cematu kali jua " . Menhan rasa saja ku tadi atu, BAEEE. Mun mau banar terus terang ja dih inda pyh bunga2, KIMA BAH KIMA. Balum usulnya ia kenal siapa si zirah ani. Inda penyaluru kah tu namanya if urang buat pekara yg kamu banci balik2? PASAN KU PANYALURU NAMANYA TU. Macam cakap kamu, pantang kamu apa kana IGNORE wahhh, yatah rasa ku tu masani!! Macam barat baginya kan gitahu aku ani apanya, OK TU EH AKU MELAYANNN MUN CEMATU CARANYA. Lama dah ku sabar and nyimpan kemarahan ani, ani nada ku sanggup eh kana cakap cematu i felt macam kana cucuk rasanya hati ani BANAAARTAHHH!!! Kan 5 tahun balum tah ia paham and kenal aku ani siapa, EH SADANG JUA TU AH. Ok i admit aku inda paham ia 100% tapi atleast AKU INDA BUAT MACAM YG IA BUAT! Ok aku admit jua some cakap nya inda ku ikut like sleeping late,smoking and pakaian atu pun bukan nya ku inda mau ikut, I WAS TRYING AND ATLEAST INDA BABIT2 KAN URANG. Eh nasib nada mood ku wah kan buat issues tadi, simpan saja tah dulu just wait for the right time. I was trying to be patient tadi tu since my head kusut, ijap ku lain jadinya munku ungkit tadi atu, kusut tia lagi kepala ani ngalih ku lagi inda cukup tidur. Entah eh its really hard for me, my whole family knew everything about him, biasa lagi like he's part of family dah. Mati dah akal ku cana kan buat hati ani puas and inda sakit lagi. I felt like im stupid mcm im not needed in his life. Only one thing yg ku pinta, IF BANAR IA MAU TERUS TERANG SAJA INDA PAYAH BUNGA2 HABIS CERITA BUAT HIDUP BARU YG IA IDAM2KAN SELAMA ANI. OFF, im stupid since i fall in love with you. Its hard just to let you go but it's more hard to know that you really dont need me anymore. Thanks for making me stupid and thanks for making me fell in love with a guy like you. If they dont love you its not gonna be hard for me i will just walkaway but they love you care for you but what did you do to me? Maybe i was wrong bringing you to them and make you guys so close, they really believe in you. Entah eh mati akal ku )':

Happy Birthday to my Dearest sister Nurul Hafiqah a.k.a Fhiee (: Happy 13th Birthday sis, may you have a long life and goodluck on your studies hope that you can make mummydaddy proud. Hope you'll never followed the same step that WE your big sister and brother did, be the best. Will always pray for you and hope all your dreams cometrue. i love you (:

My saturday night was boring. Ok its fun going out with my baby and siblings, its just that nothing i felt interesting. Is like we went home early, macam boring jua ku tu and then balik rumah pun boring. Hm lame night i guess. Its been a while i didnt have much fun, usually we just main pool di rumah kumpul2 its not that aku jarang keluar rumah its just that i didnt pernah felt this boring bah. Mind pun inda rest oleh nya, disturb jua lakat pikiran ani. And urgh two nights aku ada nightmare, which pissed me off!! Inda tenang jiwa ku olehnya, its really odd dua kali lagi tu eh ): I was like " Eh bae, mesti ada something ni!!! ". Macam nada mimpi lain saja, ani mikin inda tantu pikiran ku macam dalam utak ku " apa patut di buat ah, gerenti ada something ni ". I hate this kinda feeling )': Inda aman wahhh, it made my life miserable. Think atu think ani equals to kusut wah s: Tambahan lagi tadi i saw that BITCH MIANG KEGATALAN GILABAE rasa kan meraum muhanya pelacur ah!!! What if something happens merana ku lagi, hm i dont know what should i do. Im lost and obviously need help. Im not in peace for this moment ): I HATE NIGHTMARES IT MADE ME INSANE! Nauzubillah.

Today hm not quite well i guess. Went shopping tadi with grandma, broHM and ayai. It was BORING, i didnt even bought that much things like always so nada mood. I slept after having lunch and pool-ing with my baby. I wokeup at 6pm then went down play pool with broHM and paucu. 12am barutah kami semua naik habis uncle ejal balik. Hm so heard a story tadi, bari garam hati mendangar! I am so mad, i mean REALLY MAD!! When me and broHM first heard it, i was like " eh BAE jua!! ". As if kana hina bah kami atu, kana ucap lupa diri!! I was pretty upsad and payah kan pecaya apa yg kana ceritakan atu but i know its true. Macam kana pukul rasanya! Labih sudah tu cara durang atu! Apatah tu cakap cematu ah, eh mun kami tau DATANG KAMI WAHHH apa pulang indaaa! Ani langsung kami inda tau papa kamu ucap kami macam2!! Doesnt mean kami nada di rumah kalau ada papa nada kami balik! Mun cani cara kamu, MANASAJA KAMI LAYAN. Andang patut dah ku inda bagi muha arah kamu atu!! Perasahan berakal PUI!! Awu becakap tah kamu sama aku menagur tah, MELIAT PUN INDA KU MAHU MUN DAPAT JANGAN TAH LAGI MELIATKAN MUHA KAMU ATU ARAH KU BANCI KU!! MELAMPAU DAH!! Sakit hati ku mendangar tadi atu, ANI PUN LAKAT SAKIT HATI KU NI HATI MANA INDA SAKIT MENDANGAR AHH!! Awu bakal saja aku mikirkan urang lain jua, ngada2 becakap cematu! SETAHU JUA!! Di tanya cakap entah nada response tapi sudah atu lain tia lagi ceritanya!! JANGANTAH KAMU PERASAHAN BERAKAL SANA ATU, JANGAN TAH NUNJUK2 YANG DIRI ATU BERAKAL INDA PAYAH BALUM BERAKAL BANAR TU!! Sejahat2 ku sebuduh2 utak ku ingat jua ku kan hal2 lain tanggungjawab ku apa. Sayang sikit dih mulut kamu atu!! Mun ku inda pikir kan urang lain astah melapas banar kemarahan ani arah kamu!! Theres no more respect for both of you, EH BEHAPA JUA KU KAN RESPECT PUI!! I dont mind if you guys kan mereplace both of us but bukan caranya cemani, ani mendatangkan masalah ni cara kamu ahhh yatah mendatang kan dendam jua ni!! Inda buduh dari mana as if kami atu inda part of family saja!! Sooner or later you'll see how mean i can be, i admit for now dapan urang i'll act that im okay LAYAN SAJA TIA KEBERAKALAN KAMU AHHH. I dont feel like mengakun siapa kamu atu arah ku lagi BANARTTAHHH. Its too unacceptable for me, thats way too far! Huh this is why my mood went very down i just got to let it all out here, i guess i stop here got to rest my mind. Currently MSDK )':

Hello world! Lets just go on with the point aight? Ok today was.. NICE i can say.. Except this buah pinggang of mine bolah!! Ok did attend another SPA test tadi and then off to serasa ada urang kawin. Went there with my baby and my whole family. Its was HOT!! I mean REALLY HOT, i was so ngusut this head lagi dizzy and this buah pinggang lagi macam bae sakitnyaa! We sampai there sharp 10am and went home around 1pm i think, BATAH BAHHH. So kunun today kan beinject but tidak jadi maaa, i just got to get it done before my period comes s: Hm i might sleep late today cuz i fell asleep tadi, alamat this mata nyamal lagi ni setiap malam s: And what annoys me right now is this itchy hands of mine, sibuk2 tah jua bah kan gatal!!! Huh what a day, i did have a lil fun but at the same time im feeling incredibly UNWELL ): Hm i guess thats all for today, i dont felt like typing much. Hoping this pain will heal sooner ): Im so MSDK lately )": Been crying so bad and hard to sleep thinking about it,OFF )":

Ok again, ABOUT HER! My mind just cant stop thinking about her, SERIOUSLY! Everytime i look at her, my mind just went insane. I felt that i want to spit on her right to the face! She really disguts me yaknow! I hate everything about her, BANAARTTAHHH! The way she talk, walk, dress EVERYTHING LAHHH! The way she talks to people, MEMBARI KAN MENAMPAR!! Manakan eh maruah mu ah danggg?!! BUDUH!! Macam nada saja kau kan cakap kutur sama urang, krg sudah kana ucap pelacr mcm2 cakap mu!! TOLOL!! Pasal ulah mu tu karang peradian mu yang kana jua!! BAE! Inda payah dih kan showoff kan arah urang yang kau atu tau kan barang cematu atu, manakan urang mencari kau! Kau biasalah perasan kana cari paasal dirimu yang bagimu LAWA atu! LAWA KALIAH KAU ATU BULIHHH BAIK LAGIIII!! PUI. Tiap hari kau saja kan dipikirkan! MEMBARI SANAK TAU KAU!! Kan inda dipikir kan kau atu PAYAH, LUWAN2 PANDAI JAGA DIRI BAH KAU ATU YATAHHH!! Nama diri buruk pun inda kisah, MANA UTAK ATU KANNN! MANA TIA UTAK MU YG KAU CAKAP BERAKAL AHHH! TAEEE. Ok stop, im getting really tension so i better stop. Hm i dont know how to rate about today, i really have no mood since petang tadi! Its like in my head ada something wrong. I treat him pun harshly like seriously i was pretty pissed infact until now I AM STILL PISSED! Im speechless, i guess i better go to bed atleast a lil tension is released here.

Hm the poco poco tadi was....BORING!! But cali jua meliat old peeps dancing around and singing loud. Huh ok i know i sounded unexcited, well tadi ada ANNOYERSS!! Ok the story goes like this ( bah becaita ku ni buring ku ni inda dpt tidur layan saja tia cerita ku ani k ), well ok we were sitting down tadi watching the olders menar menyanyi apa ada tah ANNOYERS SIAL ani mengacauuu!! Ok tempat kami duduk atu hampir bnr dangan tabuk bah pendek kan ceta dpt bah kami sandar arah tabuk tu, so diam2 kami meliat urang poco poco ada tia kana labuk tabuk ah! GILABAE pisinnya!! Mun urg sakit jantung mati kali pakah, ingatnya cali kali!!! BUDUH!! Ok mula2 we ignore lah sekali macam balik2 atu PANYALURU jua tu??! So atlast sanak2 kami ngam si tulang bwa laptob we buat lah arah screen laptop atu " ANNOYING JUA, JOBLESS KAH??? " . And then tanpa di sedari rupanya terbaca rupanya durang hehe pandai mental menyumpah (: HELLOOOO siapa yg ngacau siapa kan ni??? Baru kami buat cematu menyumpah tia yg durang melabuk tabuk atu APAHAL??? NADA KERAJA LAINNN?? BADAN SAJA BASAR TAPI UTAK BODO, MAINAN KANAK2 TU BUI KAU AHHH!! Bakal saja bukan rumah diri wah, bakal saja respect kan tuan rumah!! NGADA2! Mun dangan ani kanak2 inda jua ani BAE BAH BADAN BASAR UMUR PATUTNYA BERAKAL!! Bukan kan sekadar eh cuba pikir if misal nya we sandar wah arah tabuk then kana labuk sakit jua tu nyantaa! Tadi atu kan gugur wah jantung ah apa inda temper ani naikkk!! Kesian baru jua di bagi words cematu, mental tia (: Padahal drg yang mula not us, bisai2 urg duduk diam di kacau macam GILABAE!! Baru ya inda berakal!! Erk ok stop, tutup cerita. Awu mental ku, sudah pun PISSED tadi time bemsg tambahan tah lagi pasal annoyers ani mikin jua ku pissed tuuu!! Ok im gonna go to bed, have to sleep i had to reset my eyes supaya tidur awal. Huh itu 4hari bisai dah mataku sanang tidur awal sekali hari ke-5 atu bebalik tia lagi kan tidur akhir, ok selamat tidur!!!!!!!

Another day with a massive headache. Huh i am incredibly hating her too much! Her attitude, style, way huh everything lah about her! She disgust me somuch BANAARRTTAHHH! Everytime i saw her shit face i felt like want to screw her for good!! Why just can she accept the fact that she is still young and obviously a KID!! She talks like a bitch and act like one! What are you, a real biatch?? Sorry for my uncensored languange i am so freaking pissed right now, i just got to let go of my anger here nada tempat lain lagi bah kan keluarkan anger ani. Ok sambung.. Dont be so sure the boys are going to you because of your wannabe beauty, obviusly their into your disgusting dirty attitude! Is that how you reach your fame?? Aww, so sad youre such a brainless. Youre just trying to make yourself like a fool, oh wait you are a fool. I have been patients for like too long and this time there is no sabar2 from me, i had enough. You and your dirty slutty attitude really disgust me. You think you know everything, you think youre good in everything, you think youre the winner or whatsoever. And its so boring to see you looking " wannabe mature " infront of people, it really annoys me when youre not even one so can you just please stop faking? (: Oh yeah and whatsup with the " menjaga muha thingy? " I thought dulu you cakap " malastah ingau kan pakai sabun2 cream2 apa, natural saja kaliah ". Taeee, ia jua di ikutkan nyaaa!!! And it really so incredibly annoys me when what i had, you just stole it just like a snap of finger! Realised jua kali urg ah semua kan diikutkan!! Inda ketara wah cara mu ah!! Mana tia style2 mu yg kau bangga2 kan ah?? Inda menjadi kah?? Kesian juaa. I know lah youre trying to compete with me, ingat aku inda realised kah?? Im not that blind and obvious cara mu atu ketara (: Its not that inda buleh ikut kan cara2 ku but mun kau yang ikut marah plus gali ku wah! Yang bari pissed lagi, because of you our name jadi buruk! Nada keraja mu lain kah kan melanji menggatal bemiang sana sini?? Inda kau malu kah?? Eh awu wah urg lanji urg gatal urg miang mana pemalu!! Mihir bah MIHIRRR. EEHHH rasakan di ludahi bah muha mu ah BANARRTAHHH. See you made me macam urg inda behati, pasal salah mu sendiri ni aku jadi cemani arah mu. Kau buat aku inda penyampai hati arah mu, rasa kesian atu pun nada wah luwan2 tah kamah tu ulah mu ah baiktah di basuh di gasa barsih2 jua! See how far you and me can get through this, i wont be the one yang apologise. Buat apa jua dih ku kan minta maaf, bukan nya ku ada salah pun (: Once your clean and realised all of your mistakes then we can be just good and pretend none of the issues between us had happen.