I feel like talking about my relationship rightnow, i dont know why but i just feel like it. So here goes nothinnnn~We've been talkin like how many times now about what i like and what i hate and it seems none of the words that came from my mouth went to his head!Seriously, i just cannot stand this.How many times do i have to mentioned it?!!Apa nunggu ku inda dpt bckp brutah merati?!!And you never freaking care about what you did but when it comes to me mcm bae!!Ngalih saja ku bckp balik2 but NOTHINGS CHANGE!!!Apakan?What do you expect me to do???I did everything i could to be that good girlfriend you ever wanted, I DID!I told you from the beginning if you cant handle me or US you know what to do, you can simply leave me or whatever.

Ya i know im sencitive, kuat marah, kuat nyamal so jgn lah ku di buat marah!You really dont get me do you?I dont think so..Why is it so hard for you to understand this whole thing?!How many million freaking times i have to say?!!Times had wasted but i thought its worth but turns out it wasnt worth at all..You never did done anything to heal this relationship, is like your lost or something! To be honest, i dont know how to deal with you anymore..You cant handle me that well either..You took things so lightly even its a big deal, is like none of the problems we've been through is important to you is like something that doesnt matter at all!And you barely want to talk about it, you rather change the subjects than talking about it.This kind of relationship is not the kind that im wanting for, i wanted something that makes the relationship grow stronger and importantly a honest relationship.Why bother being with me when all you do is nothing to heal this relationship!I tried to get rid of the past from my head, I tried to control my anger and I tried to make this relationship work!But what do you do?Tell me, WHAT?!!!Sometimes i feel like US is a mistake.

I thought things will work out easily but it doesnt..You yelled at me so many freaking times, tebuat ia bkasar bulih tebuat urang mcm bae!Yelling is not the good thing to do when youre trying to settle a problem, having convo about it will be nice dont you think?Well, i think so..You will probably be mad im talkin it out here but hell i aint care!You never want to talk about things like this with me you rather talk about something else than talking about us!Dont you even denied it, oops thats right you always denied everything that you do!Cos thats just you!But then when it comes to me blablabla mcm bae!!Bah eh i think thats just it..Theres just so many things to say but ONLY this i can say..Hm, salam~And guess what nothings comes from your mind whats the date for today! BAHAGIA KU CANI ANI, BAHAGIA TAEEEE!


Morning..

So i just got back from Tasek Lama, turns out jogging is my everyday routine from now on..And im absolutely tired, its hot!! So this past few weeks nothing much..Went to miri last weekend with My baby and the whole family..Yea as usual im with my needs, i shop until i drop! It was fun i guess:) Hm dont want to talk much about it, overall it was okay:)

And guess what?Im gaining weight!Im like WTH?!!Buncit hantap sudah sang parut ani no good:( So im on my diet hehehe Taeeee~And i have digestion problem hehehe if you know what i mean..And it is so annoying i had to handle stomache everyday, selagi belum keluar selagi atu tah sakit parut ani!Kepisan nyantaaaaaaaa~Kang mkn salah kang inda makan salah tah juaaa infact now i feel like poooping ergh:S Biar tia eh save it for later hahaha..

Oh yea i had a really bad and scary dream lastnight..Inda heran macam tiap hari ja nightmare...But lastnight was so kesian:( It was like i dont know its really hard for me to cerita here..I was holding it and when i turn it around thats when the kesian part starts..I wokeup with tears, kesian berabis:'( Hm dont want to talk about it nanti ka utak tujunyaaa! Ok im goin nowww....

<-Fool me once shame on you, Fool me twice shame on me->

Holla:)

So as usual i've been busy..I dont have time to blog that often cos im so busy with the houseworks! I only have time for facebook hehehe:p So anw, its june inda lama lagi august hehehe:) Puasa is coming soon and so is...our birthday! Hehehe cant wait for puasa and cant wait to turn 19th..Next year 20th tia kami hehehe:) I am so excited for puasa cos....lapas puasa hari raya wah thats why aku excited hehehe:p I just cant wait to see how my baju's turns out..Dui behantar pun alum ah:( Hm:(

Oh yea..Mom had suggest me to take driving class AGAIN! She asked me to take my driving license along with my brother when he turn 18th this august..Well, i dont know i dont feel like it but sometimes i feel it..Apakan~Macam BEE! Hehehe..Besides its not easy as it seems i mean the driving exam the written exam is okay well since i passed hehehe the driving exam that im worried about, ngada2 bah ada2 saja! And i heard many people faailed cos of the driving test! And its not easy to find a tutor for me, i dont want to end up like the one time i quit becos of that stupid tutor! I feel like kicking his freaking head BANAAARRR~ How will i learn if he keeps pissing me offf??? TALO! Ok menjadi kang mental ani hehehe..

And im gonna have my SPA written test this sunday..Awal bah nyanta startnya paksa jua awal ku bangun tu:( Hm ok im gonna go now:)

Let me say somethin here.....

LOVE = LIES

There is no point saying to someone that you love them and just dont mean it. AND MOST OF ALL YOU SHOULDNT LIE TO THEM!!!

Well I DONT GIVE A SHIT LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR I DONT GIVE A DAMN TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO LIE TO ME AND BETTER ALL JUST FUCK OFF!! OTHERWISE I MAY SPITTING RIGHT TO YOUR FACE ASSHOLE!! I MAY BE EASY AS YOU THINK BUT TRUST ME IM NOT THAT STUPID!! I'LL SHOW YOU HOW I ROLL!! IM BETTER OFF ON MY OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Well, hello!

Hm..I really REALLY dont know what to talk about but still i feel like blogging. So last weekend I went to Miri with My aunties, uncles, Lil cousins, My sibs and Him. Im not in the mood to talk about it but yea it was fun. I really really want to skip that I really really dont want to talk about it cos theres that someone in it so lets just move on with something else ok!

So i had a really weird dream lastnight. Its not just weird but TOTALLY PISSED ME OFF! Thats why i wokeup very moody today. Seriously, I HATE THAT DREAM! I feel like it was a sign and the worst part is that I believe it. So guess what i did?? Im trying to let things go, Im trying to forget everything and Im trying to forget people that was in my dream. Letting myself to be hurt was just not me. So before i get crush and hurt i better do something about it. I know sometimes dream is just a dream but to me it wasnt just a dream its something that I believe in and something I must do something about it. I know I sounded really weird and yeah I know Im a FREAK! Thats just the way I am. A girl that people will love to runaway from. Ok whatever Im done. Oh i really love to blog about the convo I had with my Brother and Grandma in the car today but frankly its not the right time I AM SOOOOOO PISSED LIKE HELL!