Babe, Alhamdulillah sampai jua tani until today ( : Today its our 4years annivesary, 28th september 2005 was the day you asked me to be your booboo and im gladful that we're still together until now ILOVEYOUBLACKISHASSME! ( : We've been through so many bad times but still we need eachother, care for eachother and love eachother. We made mistakes but we're still here standing together even how hard and hurt it is. I dont care babe how hard and pain it is to be with you, as long you are here with me i'll be just fine ( : I love it when you cuddle me like a baby, i love it when you wipe my tears, i love it when you kiss my forehead, i love it when you hold my hand so tight, i love it when you make that so-called the rock face, i love it when you sleep, i love it when you sing, i love it when you laugh so hard, i love it when you kiss all parts of my faces, i love it when you eat much and i love it when you like that i eat much : D Overall i love every good and funny things about you babe ( :
Hope theres more happines in our lives, hope there will be no more stupid fight for a stupid thing and hope theres no more rumor about you which made me insane... I maybe dont know what you did behind my back but remember people knew who you are and i have strong feelings and instinct when you hide something from me. I hate to say this but Im crazy in love with you for all these times I tried to be strong just because of you.. I dont feel right when youre not here by my side and i dont feel that complete.. So babe, pretty please dont you ever go break my stupid fragile heart no more please? See im begging you here.. You knew i have many problems to deal with so please dont you make problem between us.


Hola people.Whoah its been a week my blog ani inda beupdate hehe so now UPDATE PEOPLE! Okay the reason i didnt update is i didnt have my time bah, been busy this raya. Well okay straight to the point.. My raya was a blast with them ( : Even my head still kusuting for all the problems i had but i managed to get it off a little from my mind, if its not because of them i wont be smiling, laughing and joking around. Thanks ALOT guys, ILOVEYOUALL! ( : I just thought that life must go on eventhough how hard and hurt it is. What a life ei? So tuff and so painful ) :Pity me. Oh ya the openhouse kelamarin was mengalih kan man ! Lalah nyamuuu ! Ganjil you know this year i rajin : D I did everything exact wah no complain apa haha q : But although melalahkan i have fun you know helping out for the openhouse, and it was hell fun doing it with my broHM ( : We fool around ALOT when doing that doing this macam-macam saja cerita kami ulah kami haha ( : Thanks to broHM! He's the one that dangan me share kelalahan ani : D Lain lah JG, entah bukan pulang kan menulung biar ia bejalan! I dont know eh how to ajar that girl lagi. Always think about herself! All she wants is to enjoy,enjoy and enjoy! Okay i stopped ngusuting about her, anyways thanks bro! ILOVEYOU! You're the only one that i can count on. Sabar saja pasal adi tani yang sorang tu, let her be dulu one day she will realised how wrong she is for all this times. And also thanks to my sayang for coming ( : ILOVEYOUHANTAP! EH babe kiut si fasha atu ah macam aling ah? q : Fasha is my adorable cute baby! HAHA, perasan ! Nada waa, baby fasha is anak daripada kaming( JB's sis) and bangmarul( JB's brother in law). Oh talking about fasha how funny it is ada urang ani wah ,okay at that time i was holding fasha then she asked " anak mu kah? " haha i was like kan menjawap awu sudah tu EHH pakal saja diri ani inda mau kana ucap si akun haha. Sama kali bah our faces q : cute tah sudah i atu EHH mun sama layak tah tu sudah eh jadi IBU. haha ada tah karang ni urang jeles q : astaganagana too much of angan-angan me ani q : im so mad at myself EHH didnt sempat took my pictures with fasha!! ERGH!! Oh ya hariz did came too, thanks yaw walaupun kau lidut datang! : D Okay im kinda malas kan cerita-cerita lagi cuz lazy bah kan menaip-naip but all i can say is my raya was hell fun with them ( : Okay only these pictures i rajin to upload here, if you guys want to see semua you can go to my facebook just click the link below :
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2018797&id=1499915524&l=3efb1dc386
Alright thats all saja kali for now, i'll keep updating if i had something to share... Selamat Hari Raya people !









Morning earthlings~ I just want to update about yesterday, well if today nothing special. It just that i woke up early and currently having massive headache since lastnight ) : Okay, kelamarin i went to gadong with them, since hari atu sudah we planned sungkai sama-sama so ya we did kelamarin. But not all that came, AL and NAZMI didnt joined us and DIJAH broHM punya girlfriend pun cant joined us yesterday. sisFR went sungkai-ing with her friends and ofcourse lah she didnt joined us too. So there are me, myJB, broHM, broHIK, sisZP, sisJG, sisKAITENG, broWAN, HARIZ, HAFIZ, WAL and broALI JB'S brother. We ate at thyes, glad we datang awal. Its crowded after 6pm! Since we ramai, we used three tables. And ya we were loud surang-surang, bising! SisZP came out late because she was having tuition patang atu so she came around 5labih or 6 kali i cant barely remember. I didnt ate time sungkai cuz not having the mood, i dont feel like eating so JB cleaned up my meal and i just drink miloping. Besides i was kinda saving my perut for later, im craving to go to pasar malam to buy tongking but inda menjadi. Ya know why? My mood banar-banar hilang at sharp 8pm. Something bothers me and HE didnt realised and ERGH he kept asking me why,why and WHY!!! Ofcourse its because of you STUPID! Gee, your so annoying sometime when it comes to my moody-ness!!! My head really hurts dimalam ) : Sampai-sampai balik rumah mengampai tarus. Now pun masih ni sakit, gilabae sakitnyaaa!!! This year is really a SIAL year for me! My life was like a disaster this year!! If I had a gun, ai mai gat i will definitely shoot myself up right through the head BANAAARTTAHHH!






Okay im so marah to myself cuz i didnt took my pictures with JB kelamarin well you know jua kan pasal apa. And sisZP, sisKAITENG and broHIK inda spoting !!! Durang punya gambar ganya nada ni semua urang ada ! Esh, okay inda apa kamu nanti kamu! Payah i kan gambar curi-curi, durang payah sikit bah kalau yang lain sanang q : Oh ya lastnight JG jumpai urang i was late datang due to the moody-ness i had, sudah habis ia jumpai urang atu baru tah i datang! Kesian that girl ketungkalan hehe yatah tu ngucap urang sukati nah dalam msn macam banar sudah kejumpahan atu settle EHH. Okay im off my head onthaway kan ngampai usulnya, i have personal problems at home and almost everyday i have to mental-mental! OUT!!

Hello earthlings ~ I just felt like blogging so here it goes... I get my hair relaxing today, as you see picture above atu tah kejadian my hair after relaxing. Im not that satisfied and regreting a little, sayang terabang $35. And ergh I was with JG, auntykuG and the BITCH with her two kids. Well i was moody because ia ada AHH. I REALLY HATE HER BAH! Hate tahap kan mati tabak bae!! Okay we sampai rumah at noon then in the afternoon me, JG and ZP dengani grandbini ke stadium membali food for sungkai and ya SHE ikut jua !! Spoil my mood saja WAH ia AHH! Bae usulnyaaa ! We meet makteh di sana habis nya balik keraja. Not much yang we bought, nada mood BAHH kan bali atu bali ini, its HOT man! I was so incredibly KUSUT! Mun inda kanyang parut sudah ni! And now currently im just sitting down watching bro HIK, bro HM and sis JG main wii. ( :





Okay guys now its my time to play wii. Im off. Missing my baby TOO MUCH EHH. ) : Cant wait to see you babe !

Hadui dang, sangal ku bah kau AHH. Balik-balik kan cari attention ani. Dapan urang macam si banar kau mun mau cuba aga aku bah inda payah kau susah-susah kan diri mu menyindir saja. Not my style melayan sindiran ani, if mau said it straight to my face BITCH!( : Apakan? Kau ingat kuat tah kau tu cematu ah dapan urang? Dang sadar dih berumur kau atu sudah tapi kesian eh inda pandai bepikir. Sepatutnya matang tah ah ani dui berakal lagi kanak-kanak. Tau ku dih kau kesunyian wah, boring kau nada urang sudi melayan kau. Kau jua sendiri cakap inda kau kan sujud supaya kami kan melayan kau apa tapi ani kenapa tia macam asi-asi ani? Inda ku paham EHH kau AHH. Yatah before you speak think first ( : And aku tau kau pikir durang inda melayan kau pasal aku inda melayan kau tapi sorry dang ah durang sendiri inda mau melayan kau. Kami inda melayan urang inda berakal plus chicken macam kau. Sadar sikit kau atu bukan urang sini so jangan tah kan menganjung gilabae tabak kan mati. Bagak sudah kau atu wah kan masuk 30 sudah, inda kau belajar apa-apakah selama kau hidup 27 tahun ani? Nada kah? Kesian jua tu ahhh, bisai lagi kanak-kanak pakah. Mun inda ku mikir kan ankal ku dang sembarana sudah hidup mu oleh ku, bakal saja AKU ANI BERAKAL lain lah macam kau UTAK TUYU! Kau pikir kau buleh buat aku hancur kah? HAHA, salah kau dang-dang~ Kau sendiri cakap kau okay jua kami inda melayan kau tapi mengapa tia ni asi-asi kan some of kami? HAHA, dari sana sudah nampak kau inda berakal. Cakap saja macam banar ( : Macam tadi ah sandi tu ah mengimbit kaki urang tapi kana jalingi kunun cali lah tu ah HAHA. Annoying kau dang-dang ~ And apatah tu kau becakap cematu tadi ah " apatah tu diam-diam ah persan kuat tah tu nya " HAHA, mentel jua kau dang? Sakit banar jua hati mu inda kana layan atu? Sabar bahhh q: Siapa yang perasahan kuat ani banarnya? Cubatahhhh.. Teknik bah kau ah supaya kami mula, sorry ah kami beutak inda macam kau KUNO. Kesian ku bah kan kau ah, cara mu cari attention ah macam apa. Laki mu sendiri lagi inda tepakai kan kau ah dang. Mun di ikuti usulnya divorce kan nya kau sudah bakal laki mu berakal ingat kan tanggungjawab nya sebagai indung arah anak mu ah. Sudah pun inda berakal inda tau malu inda lagi pandai besyukur ! Baik tah kau adang sana ah. Caritah hidup baru menyamak saja kau ah. PENGAMAH! Relek saja kau sana ah, ada masanya segala kemarahan kebencian ani terlapas sandi arah mu ( : Bebuduuh, bepalui, bebae, besial tah kau puas-puas sana ah. Makantah kau eh tahi mu sendiri ah. BANCI KU KAN KAU AH LINAAA!

Hello eartlings and good evening. Okay i went out tadi with my aunty ku-G, beli rail and some foods for sungkai. I dont have mood for shopping tadi. My eyes are sleepy bah yatah kusut. I bought only food-food ringan. Kinda boring lah tadi, tambahan tah lagi JB pissed me off. And ya im still mad right now.But i know i'll get over it later. Okay skip this part, now tadi kan went we finished shopping apa...on the way home...at roundabout mana kah tu lupa i, ada bah this car i cant remember eh vios kali..At that time I was on the phone with makteh, then when i look at the window the dudes in the vios car wave at us. I asked aunty ku-G, " aunty siapa kan tu? ". Aunty answered, " siapa apa?". I said " atu bah kaita sebalah ah melambai-lambai " and she looked at them and said " entah eh, capi-capi kali eh." Then aunty race the car and guess what? Race nya jua and waved again. So i look at them with my so-called serious face lah and i dont know them either so ya i ignored. But tertanya-tanya jua kami siapa :D Gila kali those dudes :D So ya sampai muara, i message JB telling him that im home already and went straight to sleep. I woke up ngam-ngam 615pm, went downstairs and tarus sungkai. Lapas sungkai i have the mood sikit but ya still sleepy. I force myself to play wii with bro HIK, bro HM and sis JG. And ergh im still sleepy but inda mau tidur, talur ah? And ergh how i hate PMS!!!!

To my sleepyhead, even im mad at you doesnt mean i dont love you. Im mad because i love you. Hope youre being good di sana atu!



Phew~ its almost 6am, i just have to blog something here. Hm okay tadi i watch a love comedy movie. Well some part are funny but some other part just snap me out! I cried a lot. And I learn something from there, really i did. I know now what is missing in my relationship. Well im not really sure what i'll do but for sure im gonna do anything just to make it all right. Huh i realised i've been acting really weird lately. Emotional here emotional there, well whatever i have my own reasons. I felt i have lose everything and everyone. Nobody understands me. The past are haunting me. I just felt bad and need to do something which im not sure what to do. When i found those pictures, letters,stuffs it sank my heart )': My head just accidenttally flashing back the old times. I just want everything to be okay. I cant lie, im really hurt inside..Its not easy keeping and hiding this pain... I almost feel that im gonna lose myself but i know theres something that i can do... I just know there is..I just hope i'll find the right path...Im sick living like this, is like im lost..Well maybe i am really lost.I mean look at me, useless i can say..Or maybe i desserves all of this..Im just nothing to everyone...Im maybe living in a world full of people but im just a toy for people to have fun with. But still life must go on.....thats what im doing right now, moving on....Moving this hatred life. I dont care what people will say, im just gonna live my life with my own way...Its up to me now...Sooner or later i'll found what im looking for..I need to get a real life...Im sick with dramas, gossips and whatsoever. Even it took me a long timeeeeeeee.

I woke tadi around 3lalu pm. And Im happy ( :
Sayang ada text tadi saying his off to the JPD for the license and oh the sweet words melted me! (': Sayang I just want to be like dulu...I miss everything in the past.
The sweet things that we use to do together...Really I do...
Maybe its true i should never underestimate your love for me dulu...
But its so hard, I know I'm really really sencitive and mad.. Im just too much in love with you and you made me go crazy..Crazy in love with you!
Hope you mean it when you said you never ever gonna leave me...Really I do...
All I want was just you.... you AJHS! YOU!!

Ergh, lately i get so emotional... I wonder a lot, I think too much, I cried almost everyday and I get so worried ) :
Im missing him too much............
BABE, I LOVE YOU!
and im not tired of saying I LOVE YOU pebaik sejuta kali because i really do LOVE YOU ( :
And I meant it.......... You know i do......... Thats why im here just for you...

You people can say Im crazy, Im stupid or whatsoever.. Well maybe its true but in the brightside im in love with a man that im willing to stay with for the rest of my entire life and i just hope he felt the same way too.... Years being with you were hard and im not gonna let go of it that easily... Its harddddddddddddd !