Today's BBQ was.... i cant say i enjoyed but incredibly tiring eh and i ate too much today which is not okay. I tried to have fun but hm inda dapat. So i just act that i really had fun and enjoy the whole day which im not ): I kept faking smile, i act that im okay tapi banarnya inda, i kept laughing just to ease this pain and hiburkan diri but semuanya useless at the end when im alone datang lagi, lagi, lagi and lagi! Thought today is gonna be the day that i will never forget but....hm S: Theres something bothers me and i just cant stop it! I kept fighting til it stop but i cant ): It just keep bothering me again and again, what the hell is wrong with this stupid brain. Erk! I dont know why suddenly it pops on my mind, really i dont know! Everytime im alone thinking, i kept thinking this nonsense things which is totally weird. I hate it when aku babau tarus-tarus, angan-angan tapi utak bejalan. ANNOYING WAH SAKIT HATI KU! It haunts me, sakit kepala ku wah oleh nya. Okay the headache datang lagi, im OFF didnt have the mood to talk about the whole BBQ thingy, i have mention already that it wasnt that all good i fake everything )':