Today was phathetic. My head and my stomache was like, OUCH! Sakit S: I dont know whats going on with me, i get to love sitting alone and talking to myself everyday. Mcm setiap ptg i would cari place yg sunyi then sit down sna doing things that is not me at all. No im not crazy i just dont know what is going on my freaking mind ): I dont know what should i do, who should i talk to cuz for me theres no one in this whole wide world will want to hear me and give their shoulder just for me to lay on. Its actually happen lama sudah but it stops but now dtg semula. I just hate this weird kinda feeling, all i can do is not to fear whatever is going to happen and im gonna struggle just to make it all okay. I have no mood to contact him either, i dont know why. I just felt useless and not needed. It feels like nothing in this world could ever make my life a dream cometrue. If i could have one wish, i'll wish for someone who always be there for me care for me need me listen to me and never ever will forget me whenever and wherever. Inda banyak pun sorang jaditah, sounds like i desperately need attention ): I just want to be happy that is all, i just want all the bad things go away. Inda salah kan?s: This is what i did expressing the whole thing in this phathetic blog. People just wont listen to me, criticizing, blaming is all they could give. I know im weird i know im brainless i know im nothing in everyone eyes but what to do im just a normal human being, i have many lack and trying my best to be better. People just cant seem to see that i am really trying for the better, they all just see me for the worst. Kesian kan having a life cemani? For you, i wish you'll be that dream cometrue but for now i dont see you like that. I see you just like i see the others. I never thought im feeling like i been abandoned by you and never thought i am here just for nothing. Why cant you just be that different from other people, im not begging you to give me much of that attention but liat tah something happen to me pun you dont realised you never cared. The inside of me never was the important thing for you to care. Dont blame me not telling you. Its hard living a life like mine. Wish i could live a better life. Pyh nyamu bila tani atu nada papa nya di mata urg. Im gonna rest my mind now, im out of words.