Okay i was really overacted an hour ago, but now it just different. Its really hard for me when someone i love lied to me. And its more harder when that someone dont respect what i did, my needs and ofcourse myself. Im blank, i dont know what to do. I kinda miss my old life but its hard for me to be who i was back then. I really dont understand what he wants from this relationship, i gave everything he ask to but theres none for me. Sometimes i just felt use. I dont know what to believe anymore. I guess i was wrong to start it all over with him, theres no change at all. I dont even know whats the truth about him. For years i've been messing up myself to be that kinda person that he wants me to be but what he did was just hurting me with LIES. He didnt even aprreciate for what i have done infact he thinks of him self. I dont know how to get through this, the guy been with me for almost 5years i just cant get it what he wants. He said happiness? I dont think so, if he really want us to be happy he wouldnt do everything that he just did behind my back. I dont know maybe he doesnt want me for sure thats what i see. Showing love is by honesty, faithfully not by lies. I desserve better. I cant believe i fell for the wrong guy and love him all my heart. Read again about my previous post, was i okay? Scroll down........