Huh okay first of all, im not in the right mood masa ani. I felt want to sumpah-sumpah saja sampai esok pagi! My day went well tadi especially time shopping tadi but then the well became unwell. Huh i dont know why after balik tadi tarus-tarus kusut, marah-marah sampai barang sekadar pun buleh sampai tangan olehnya ) : Something just bothers me wah and seems like nobody understand wah even JB ) : I felt sorry to myself, because hidup inda menantu always di hantui dengan masalah and masa lalu. Im really mental and emotional time ani. I felt like crying but i know inda guna kaan nangis, so i had to tahan saja eventhough how much it hurts. MY LIFE SUCKS! Im not good in being a good grandaughter, good daughter, good sister, good cousin, good friend and a good girlfriend and maybe i will not be good in being a good wife and a good mother nanti . Im not good at anything!! Im stuck and fully living with problems which making me insane! I can feel my weakness already. How i wish to cut myself right nowww!!! I bet theres no cure for this pain ) : When will i be heal? When will i be the person that i want to be? This life is temporary, when will i be doing the good deeds? I need to answer these question myself but the problem is when will i be answering those questions if all i did was letting myself down, letting everyone down, letting myself suffer pain ) : I just cant do anything at all to save my own lives, how pity i am. Im useless, worthless, harmless and brainless. KILL ME.