I am so stress, so kusut and ergh my head hurts like HELL! And i felt very sleepy today sudah di bawa tidur sekajap ganya tidur nya, tidur bangun tidur bangun wah inda jua ku aman tu s : Banyak wah dalam pikiran ani thats why tidur pun inda aman. Babe lagi keep asking me to be jujur, sudah wah tu aling jujur apa kan lagi? SELUAR BAH TU SELUAR. Mikin ku kusut s : And ergh! How i wish i can ranaway from this place which " they called home ". I dont feel like home, infact i dont feel apart from this family. I hate seeing mom and " ia " happy, macam nadapapa wah yang terjadi. And from there i know mom rather choose " ia " dari kami. Aku pulang mental lakat wah mom pulang macam nada! Inda ku sangka mama masih dapat pecaya ia infact bagi ia peluang lagi, mama pun satu cakap saja macam banar tapi nah apa ni lakat jua. Im sick sudah eh kana bual-buali ani. Just see what happen lagi nanti. I dont even know aku buleh tahan sampai bila ni, its hard for me to move forward I felt useless.No one seems to get what i want. I want to go faraway where no one cant find me )": I know every problem ada solution nya ada exit nya but my problems? I dont think i can find the way out. Im falling into pieces. Everyday i have to fake a smile, everyday i have to act okay and im sick of it. I feel like killing myself saja wah ) : No use if i keep living cemani, daripada sakit-sakittan saja tantu mati tarus. I have nothing more to say. Just..... I miss my baby, i always wonder apa ia buat when im not around. I hope my faithfulness is worth it. I wish he can feel what i felt. Each and everyday my love for you never stops. This heart beats for you and im still standing here because of you. AJHS

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