Hello world! Lets just go on with the point aight? Ok today was.. NICE i can say.. Except this buah pinggang of mine bolah!! Ok did attend another SPA test tadi and then off to serasa ada urang kawin. Went there with my baby and my whole family. Its was HOT!! I mean REALLY HOT, i was so ngusut this head lagi dizzy and this buah pinggang lagi macam bae sakitnyaa! We sampai there sharp 10am and went home around 1pm i think, BATAH BAHHH. So kunun today kan beinject but tidak jadi maaa, i just got to get it done before my period comes s: Hm i might sleep late today cuz i fell asleep tadi, alamat this mata nyamal lagi ni setiap malam s: And what annoys me right now is this itchy hands of mine, sibuk2 tah jua bah kan gatal!!! Huh what a day, i did have a lil fun but at the same time im feeling incredibly UNWELL ): Hm i guess thats all for today, i dont felt like typing much. Hoping this pain will heal sooner ): Im so MSDK lately )": Been crying so bad and hard to sleep thinking about it,OFF )":

Ok again, ABOUT HER! My mind just cant stop thinking about her, SERIOUSLY! Everytime i look at her, my mind just went insane. I felt that i want to spit on her right to the face! She really disguts me yaknow! I hate everything about her, BANAARTTAHHH! The way she talk, walk, dress EVERYTHING LAHHH! The way she talks to people, MEMBARI KAN MENAMPAR!! Manakan eh maruah mu ah danggg?!! BUDUH!! Macam nada saja kau kan cakap kutur sama urang, krg sudah kana ucap pelacr mcm2 cakap mu!! TOLOL!! Pasal ulah mu tu karang peradian mu yang kana jua!! BAE! Inda payah dih kan showoff kan arah urang yang kau atu tau kan barang cematu atu, manakan urang mencari kau! Kau biasalah perasan kana cari paasal dirimu yang bagimu LAWA atu! LAWA KALIAH KAU ATU BULIHHH BAIK LAGIIII!! PUI. Tiap hari kau saja kan dipikirkan! MEMBARI SANAK TAU KAU!! Kan inda dipikir kan kau atu PAYAH, LUWAN2 PANDAI JAGA DIRI BAH KAU ATU YATAHHH!! Nama diri buruk pun inda kisah, MANA UTAK ATU KANNN! MANA TIA UTAK MU YG KAU CAKAP BERAKAL AHHH! TAEEE. Ok stop, im getting really tension so i better stop. Hm i dont know how to rate about today, i really have no mood since petang tadi! Its like in my head ada something wrong. I treat him pun harshly like seriously i was pretty pissed infact until now I AM STILL PISSED! Im speechless, i guess i better go to bed atleast a lil tension is released here.

Hm the poco poco tadi was....BORING!! But cali jua meliat old peeps dancing around and singing loud. Huh ok i know i sounded unexcited, well tadi ada ANNOYERSS!! Ok the story goes like this ( bah becaita ku ni buring ku ni inda dpt tidur layan saja tia cerita ku ani k ), well ok we were sitting down tadi watching the olders menar menyanyi apa ada tah ANNOYERS SIAL ani mengacauuu!! Ok tempat kami duduk atu hampir bnr dangan tabuk bah pendek kan ceta dpt bah kami sandar arah tabuk tu, so diam2 kami meliat urang poco poco ada tia kana labuk tabuk ah! GILABAE pisinnya!! Mun urg sakit jantung mati kali pakah, ingatnya cali kali!!! BUDUH!! Ok mula2 we ignore lah sekali macam balik2 atu PANYALURU jua tu??! So atlast sanak2 kami ngam si tulang bwa laptob we buat lah arah screen laptop atu " ANNOYING JUA, JOBLESS KAH??? " . And then tanpa di sedari rupanya terbaca rupanya durang hehe pandai mental menyumpah (: HELLOOOO siapa yg ngacau siapa kan ni??? Baru kami buat cematu menyumpah tia yg durang melabuk tabuk atu APAHAL??? NADA KERAJA LAINNN?? BADAN SAJA BASAR TAPI UTAK BODO, MAINAN KANAK2 TU BUI KAU AHHH!! Bakal saja bukan rumah diri wah, bakal saja respect kan tuan rumah!! NGADA2! Mun dangan ani kanak2 inda jua ani BAE BAH BADAN BASAR UMUR PATUTNYA BERAKAL!! Bukan kan sekadar eh cuba pikir if misal nya we sandar wah arah tabuk then kana labuk sakit jua tu nyantaa! Tadi atu kan gugur wah jantung ah apa inda temper ani naikkk!! Kesian baru jua di bagi words cematu, mental tia (: Padahal drg yang mula not us, bisai2 urg duduk diam di kacau macam GILABAE!! Baru ya inda berakal!! Erk ok stop, tutup cerita. Awu mental ku, sudah pun PISSED tadi time bemsg tambahan tah lagi pasal annoyers ani mikin jua ku pissed tuuu!! Ok im gonna go to bed, have to sleep i had to reset my eyes supaya tidur awal. Huh itu 4hari bisai dah mataku sanang tidur awal sekali hari ke-5 atu bebalik tia lagi kan tidur akhir, ok selamat tidur!!!!!!!

Another day with a massive headache. Huh i am incredibly hating her too much! Her attitude, style, way huh everything lah about her! She disgust me somuch BANAARRTTAHHH! Everytime i saw her shit face i felt like want to screw her for good!! Why just can she accept the fact that she is still young and obviously a KID!! She talks like a bitch and act like one! What are you, a real biatch?? Sorry for my uncensored languange i am so freaking pissed right now, i just got to let go of my anger here nada tempat lain lagi bah kan keluarkan anger ani. Ok sambung.. Dont be so sure the boys are going to you because of your wannabe beauty, obviusly their into your disgusting dirty attitude! Is that how you reach your fame?? Aww, so sad youre such a brainless. Youre just trying to make yourself like a fool, oh wait you are a fool. I have been patients for like too long and this time there is no sabar2 from me, i had enough. You and your dirty slutty attitude really disgust me. You think you know everything, you think youre good in everything, you think youre the winner or whatsoever. And its so boring to see you looking " wannabe mature " infront of people, it really annoys me when youre not even one so can you just please stop faking? (: Oh yeah and whatsup with the " menjaga muha thingy? " I thought dulu you cakap " malastah ingau kan pakai sabun2 cream2 apa, natural saja kaliah ". Taeee, ia jua di ikutkan nyaaa!!! And it really so incredibly annoys me when what i had, you just stole it just like a snap of finger! Realised jua kali urg ah semua kan diikutkan!! Inda ketara wah cara mu ah!! Mana tia style2 mu yg kau bangga2 kan ah?? Inda menjadi kah?? Kesian juaa. I know lah youre trying to compete with me, ingat aku inda realised kah?? Im not that blind and obvious cara mu atu ketara (: Its not that inda buleh ikut kan cara2 ku but mun kau yang ikut marah plus gali ku wah! Yang bari pissed lagi, because of you our name jadi buruk! Nada keraja mu lain kah kan melanji menggatal bemiang sana sini?? Inda kau malu kah?? Eh awu wah urg lanji urg gatal urg miang mana pemalu!! Mihir bah MIHIRRR. EEHHH rasakan di ludahi bah muha mu ah BANARRTAHHH. See you made me macam urg inda behati, pasal salah mu sendiri ni aku jadi cemani arah mu. Kau buat aku inda penyampai hati arah mu, rasa kesian atu pun nada wah luwan2 tah kamah tu ulah mu ah baiktah di basuh di gasa barsih2 jua! See how far you and me can get through this, i wont be the one yang apologise. Buat apa jua dih ku kan minta maaf, bukan nya ku ada salah pun (: Once your clean and realised all of your mistakes then we can be just good and pretend none of the issues between us had happen.



Morning world! Guess what? I wokeup early today, well thats because i slept early lastnight :D Yesterday i was so exhausted. There was a football match yesterday between JAK and urg orchid garden, WTH urg orchid garden STINKS! BOO (: The result sama, 2-2. Semua urg exhausted including yg meliat jua pasal lalah bah meliat urg main bula ah :D Ergh i can feel my legs is in pain, 2days row jog. Today i dont think i'll jog outside of the house, i'll be jogging inside well sayang jua ada excercise equipment sini ani hehe. My most favourite one is that kind of horsey exercise haha it rides like a horse or you can say a bull. But i dont know i kinda want to jog outside, we'll see. So currently im so hungry rightnow, so starving! Im so craving for murtabak rigtnow and and mee goreng s: Theres nothing to eat wah breakfast today, i started my morning with perut lapar. Not cool! Eh so i am pretty obsessed with the kardashians, i missed to watch them dulu but due to nada masa i didnt often watch them. Gladly i've found the website to watch all the episodes from season1 to season4 (: Im dreaming to have a life like them, ok im dreaming again lame much! Hm and i have the most annoying night the other day! I mean TWO ANNOYING NIGHTS! WTH does it want?!! Ok before i post further i better stop, im avoiding to share those nights here so farewell world!

Okay i slept for like beberapa minit tadi, i didnt realised that i fell asleep and i wokeup mengajut. So as usual mun dh tebangun andang ku pyh tidur balik, besides this parut hungry so i waited for breakfast. So theres a lot in my mind lately, been thinking about the future and the past. Didnt know what i was thinking actually, and it made me really sick. I really need someone at the time like this but unlucky me nobody understands. I dont know who will i run to, who should i talk to when the fact is nobody around me believes and understands what im going through. Ok yes its getting annoying, many times dah ku ckp cemani but seriously i cant stand it. Sorang pun inda paham wah so why let it out kan? Inda jua pidah, diam saja act like im okay. Sometimes i just felt giving up. I dont know what else i could do to fix myself up, my life is a disaster. Ok shut that, im getting sad ): So i've been really aware about the supernatural things, i dont know why but i felt weird s: Lain2 bah di pikiran ah, i imagined macam2. Sometimes i even heard voices and kept seeing things but not dapan2lah like imbas2 saja, and what bugs me sometimes i felt someone is wacthing me. You can say im making up stories or crazy or whatsoever, well im not. I've been feeling so disturbed lately, nothing i could do except ignoring it. Apa kan gitahu durang? Pui ingau pun inda tu, kna ucap ada saja ku. Buang masa durang kan mikirkan. They dont even realised that im not okay, so why bother telling?? KAN?! Wasting everyone times. Shoot i better go, my eyes are getting really heavy.

Cant sleep when i really want to. Hm later on i'll be cutting this hair, i just got to look better wah i just gotta change all of my looks s: Lately ive been so bauri youknow. I kept thinking about beauty and stuff like that and seriously i need to lose this fats ): Pokonya I NEED TO LOOK GOOD! I dont know why im worried about this kind of things so much, maybe im just too obsessed on him? Sampai bauri kan about beauty sort of things. Yes i know im overacted but cana jua, bauri ku s: I think you all know what aku bauri kan ): Its not really cool you know having a long-term relationship like i had now, theres a lot that i have to worry about. Well im not saying im not happy with it its just that entah eh hard to explain wah. Theres a lot on my mind mun aku ani heartless wah bisai nada pyh ingau apa2 ani pengingau wah aku ah banci ku! Salah2 wah ingau krg salah then krg inda di ingau salah tah jua apakan sebenarnya yg LURUS?! And its so not easy you know to let go the thing or person that means a lot to you cematu saja but depends lah whats the reason and problems well if mcm aku ani sekali inda beperi kemanusiaan buleh tahan jua ni. Sekali nya bae, inda alang2 jua bae ku ni! Sekali hati ani sakit, gila ku minta ampun tah ku, aku sendiri pun banci! Bah enough about phathetic me. Huh i wish i was heartless, ani payah bah behati ah kana buat macam BODO! Currently now im just sitting down cheering myself up with music. Sadih ku wah. BAURI WAHH! Bae ni situasi cemani ah!! Membari kan menampar wah diri ah BANARTAHHH. Eh sial banar eh, my heart beats laju banar wahhh apa makna nya kan tu )': Heartache and Headache EHHH! And huh nightmare kelmarin was... STUPID! Let me just keep it to myself wont be telling NO ONE, I REPEAT NO ONE! Who cares anyway, perasahan si dayang ani! Ok im out of mood, KUSUT!